'dream-ing*

will tomorrow be better?

2012-02-09T20:45:00.001+08:00

yepp, the recent few posts have been quite emotional. but i guess i am a person with really bad mood swings, or perhaps all girls are like this. i dont know. hope you will get used to it!

but well, today was okay. war games was fun but short. i expected it to be at lest 2 hours, and it was only 40 minutes.. but i think we sort of provided a form of entertainment to some of the J2s who came back today. think i will do it next year too, cause it seems fun looking at the faculties fight amongst themselves :P haha! but games are really the best bonding equipment! felt a lot more for artermis and my CT after it.....

but well, looking forward to tomorrow! :)

dedication

2012-02-08T18:02:00.003+08:00

yeah, i will like to dedicate this posts to my beloved clique. yeah, you know who you guys are :)

really, thank you so much!!! thank you for knowing all the unspoken words, i know you guys know what i am thinking although i dont really say anything. and thank you for that. thank you for always being there for me, because there are just some words that i only dare to say to you guys...

i dont know, as the day passes, i get more and more scared. new friends, results, CT, PW, losing contact. i dont know! i just feel like my whole life is screwed up. it seems that all the choices i have made was wrong. everything was wrong right from the start, and i am supposed to live with it, for another 2 more years.....and i dont even know if i have that much optimism and courage or will i just break down....

yeah, i am really scared....

i guess, i am scared too that you guys will also form your new own cliques, and i dont want to be a one-man island, because solitude is really scary....

but i also admit, that i am judgemental. a judgement i made on someone is hard to change, although there are exceptions too. but the things is, i guess because i have given myself a verdict, i feel like i am in hell ): although i guess, it's slightly better now. but as i say, its only slightly better....

and the thing is, trying to put a smiley face in front of everyone you meet although you just feel like breaking down is damn torturous. its so tiring....

but thanks! for just keeping quiet when i just didnt want to hear anything more; for just comforting me when i badly needed it. thank you!!

and to some extent, i think you guys are at fault too. because if you'all werent so awesome, i think i might be feeling much better now.....

THE BEGINNING & THE END

2012-02-06T19:20:00.004+08:00

today, we got into our CT classes. well, i got into Artermis (to be frank, not the faculty that i was hoping to get in. i was hoping to get into Athena) but yeah, i guess i still feel for Artermis :) really hope that we will win in the upcoming war games/ competition for class banner/ performances. 'cause i believe it will really raise the morale up :) also, my class was okay :) at least they are sporting :) yeah.....

but with the allocation of CT classes, i think it has finally dawned upon me that "hey! JC life is really starting. it's going to be a new chapter of your life". and like today, i get skeptical. because i am unsure of the choices i have made (and there is no room for alteration or change) and i dont know if i am going to regret it. it feels like i am regretting it now, because i guess it's part of human to always think that perhaps if i made the other choice, the outcome will be better. but i cant say for sure that if then and there, i chose bio, now i wont regret it either.... i guess life is just about taking chances, and i hope that in the next 2 years, i wont regret my choice :/

yepp, and with a new chapter, comes new people. i meet more people, and know more people-- a good thing :) but i am scared too, i am scared that my "clique" will break, that the number of times we meet up will just keep dwindling..... yeah, i know the friendship is there. but then, it will no longer be the same. people change, and i am scared feelings will too...

Secondary school life, were really the best years of my life...

and i guess, i only felt that impact today. during last day of school, even graduation, i didnt really feel it. i guess i naively thought that everything will remain more or less the same. or perhaps, i rather chose to believe that it would be that way... but well, JC life isnt going to be like secondary school life anymore. everything is changing, and we have to learn to adapt, to a new environment, to a new school, and to a new culture....

i guess, life is just like this, it just keeps moving... but sometimes, how i wish that, time could stop when i was a 401-er, for just one more day.....

yes, i miss you guys! ):

ORIENTATION

2012-01-31T21:22:00.002+08:00

hahah! this is a really old song, but heck! it's stuck in my head :P it's so nice ^^ and sad ):

yepp, today was the LONG AWAITED ORIENTATION!!! ice breakers were a bit failed, but at least i think the ice more or less broke (?) okay, i am being self contradicting..... but anyway, my OG is okay :) but tomorrow is going to be better!! i hope :) hahah!!! anyway, there's another jingyi in my OG group :) lol!! didnt know my name was so popular.. heard that there's also a tan jing yi in J2.....

but on the side note, i am really happy to see my MG friends around :) and they still remember me!! ^^ happy me :)

CRAPPING

2012-01-25T23:55:00.002+08:00

for a start, i would like to say that YES, I AM SO SO SO HAPPY THAT JIEYING, HUIHONG, JOLENE, WANLI ARE ALL TAKING PHYSICS!!!! ^^ YAY!!!!! should be in same faculty, and if same class, it will be EVEN BETTER ^^ anyway, just saw the orientation programme. the last day of orientation is 10 feb (ring any bells?) is the birthday of beloved wanli and me and milian :) and i know jieying and huihong are going to go broke!! hahahaha!!! okay, so i dont know if i should be happy or sad, because on 10 feb, orientation is going to end at 10pm!!! cause there's going to be campfire.... so i guess whether my birthday is going to be awesome or shitty depends on the OG i am in.... seriously praying hard that i get into a nice OG :/ dont ruin my 17 please.....

yepp, anyway today went chloe's house to bai nian. we were walking walking walking (to her house), and jolene was like "is that your dad?" then chloe said "yeah" and i said "how jolene know that's your dad?" chloe: "he was waving just now" and then i was like "that's your house?!!!" and chloe: "yeah" and we all went O.O!!!! THAT'S HER HOUSE?!!! hahah!! it was damn huge and pretty!!!! i am jealous!! i want a house like that too :P hehe....

ON A LIGHTER NOTE....

2012-01-19T14:04:00.002+08:00

yepp, i am making 2 posts today :)) this post is definitely going to be happier....but not as "insightful" hahah!!!

yepp, so the first week of JC life is going to end!!!! O.O and CNY is coming!!! HOW FAST?!!! hahah!! but anyway, i am enjoying JC life pretty much right now :) i guess perhaps that's cause the worst parts have yet to come....

so yepp, i have decided to change to PHYSICS!!!! call me fickle :P hehe! but yeah, after one lecture of biology (which i literally died) and one lecture of physics (which i enjoyed), the choice became pretty clear :) hahah!!! and after one lecture of CSC, i decided i am not going to join it afterall :P hahah!!! it's interesting to know more, but studying? no thanks :P

yepp, today is the DECIDING DAY! haha!! okay, i'm going off... bye!

THE DECISION

2012-01-19T13:39:00.002+08:00

at long last, i have decided to post something :)) hahah!!! it's just that things have been pretty uneventful these days and just didnt feel like blogging :P but here i am :)

so yepp, i didn't go for the SMTP math test. hahah!! i don't know what expression to give because i dont even know what i am feeling now :P haha! i think i am hard to understand because firstly, i dont think i even understand myself :P

yepp, so anyway, what elaine said really struck me. perhaps all these while deep down somewhere i wanted SMTP. perhaps i really wanted to get in. i dont know... although i dont really think so :P because actually, i think i went to the SMTP test to satisfy my ego :P because i really wanted to know where i stand, and was i of the calibre to get into the class. i wanted to see if i was good enough, because sometimes when everyone around you are so smart, you just feel dumb. perhaps i just wanted to tell myself that "hey, actually you are not that bad"

yeah, as i view it (of now), i thought of SMTP more of a test to see if i was good (rather than really to get in) because it feels damn good to be recognised. it really boosts your self confidence, self esteem and whatever not. it gives you (or rather, me) hope because people think i can do it (especially in times when i think i cant)......

i dont know about my chance of getting in... but i know that if i really really get selected, i wont go for it. because i really want to just get into any random class, and get into the cca (s) i want to (which i think wont be possible if i join SMTP cause of the extra lessons). i want JC to be fun (not that i am saying SMTP is not going to be). i dont know, but i guess in SMTP, with all the pressure, i cant say i will be exactly happy.....

i guess what elaine said really helped me to understand what i want and dint want....as i left school today. i didnt regret it. i didnt regret not trying and to see where i stand. but perhaps, one day in the future, i will regret it. i will regret that maybe today i should have taken the test, perhaps things would turn out different. but who can be sure that things will turn out for the better, and not the worse? no one. there are so many what if's in the world. what if my PW group sucks? what if i cant survive through JC life? what if i get into a class with people i cant "click" with? yeah... there's never a guaranteed outcome, and i guess i will just live day by day....

and of course, HAPPILY ^^

WAHAHA!!!

2012-01-13T20:59:00.004+08:00

Yo guys! look what i found in my junk email today? hahahaha!!!!!

a short excerpt of the attachment:

in case you can't see it, here it goes:

Congratulations to you on your son's excellent 2011 GCE O'Level Examination results. i am sure you must be elated and celebrating his success now.

In Catholic High, what is more heartening to us is that besides good academic achievements, your son has been groomed to be a fine gentleman and bilingual scholar of high integrity and robust character who is passionate about life, learning and service to others. This is possible because of the excellent school programmes such as the various sports, asethetics and unifrom groups CCAs as well as dedicated and committed teachers.

HAHAH!!!

LAST DAY

2012-01-12T20:35:00.003+08:00

yeah, jieying says she wants to read my blog, so i very 好心的 come and blog :))

okay, so if you are wondering last day of what? it is the last day of my holidays ): because i have a work briefing tmr and working over the weekend. and next mon? school reopen. haha! actually, i'm quite looking forward to school reopen, cause i wont die of boredom at home :P hehe! hope it won't be too xian :P

okay, so updates on my life. i think i shall just write about yesterday since that's about all i can remember now :P

so yepp, went for HC open house :) hahah! relatively small compared to Ngee Ann's :P felt more like a cca exhibition than open house actually :P haha! but i guess everyone more or less know which combi they want to take alr? hehe! yepp, and i want 3 ccas!!! :P hahah!! yeah i know i am crazy :P but i mean OAC is like 2 times a week, if really can join Interact (cuz Interact must be 1st cca also), it's once a week, and HACAS is ad hoc!! seriously hope i can join 3 :P hahah! at most i just take OAC and HACAS only lorh ): (this is my tentative decision, because there's still MAD, but provided i get thru auditions first right? scared :/)

yeah, then went to buy HC uniforms, then went to oschool :) yes, i must 抓紧时间, if not school reopen dont know if still have time to go ):

and today, i especially went down to bugis street to find shoes for CNY... and well, it officially failed ): not surprising, but saddening ):

okay, and going back in time, i shall list the things i have been doing for the holiday:

- work (to which i havent get my pay yet!!!! DDD:)

- Hong kong drama: 怒火街头 it's good :)

- Chinese drama: 步步惊心 (going to show in channel 8 next mon) it's good too :)

- Hong Kong drama: 潜行狙击 it's good "thrice" :P (lol! i guess i can spot a few canto words here and there now :P)

- shopping, playing, eating, sleeping (the obvious :P)

yeah, actually, that's about all :) hehe!

hope i provides some "entertainment" for you :)

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lol, just saw the IP schedule, my reaction? a very wu-nai laughter....

haha! but shouldnt be that bad bah, i hope :P at least there's a lot of lecture FOR INTERESTED STUDENTS only :P hahaha!!

dilemma!!

2012-01-05T15:22:00.001+08:00

stuck in a really bad dilemma right now, by which the decision have to be made by saturday ):

shit! i know it, whatever i choose, i'm going to regret it ): ahhh!!!! i seriously dont know what to do!!!!!

AHHH!!!

2012-01-04T12:44:00.003+08:00

i am weird or what? when everyone is "enjoying" (幸灾乐祸) slacking at home while the juniors go to school, i actually feel like going to school. because it's seriously boring at home. i am literally rotting )): and who will employ someone who can only work ~~2 weeks~~ not even 2 weeks!!

anyway, after serious thinking and deliberation for the past few days, i have come to a conclusion: i have decided to take BIOLOGY! good or bad? hahah!! good news for some, bad news for some (esp huihong) i'm so sorry! hahah!! there's still about 2-3 weeks for me to change my mind :)

okay, so to the new year resolutions:

1. BE MORE HARDWORKING!!!

2. BE NICER TO PEOPLE

3. MORE ORGANISED (TIME MANAGEMENT)

and to new year wishes:

1. GET INTO ODAC (shit! i havent been running :P to be exact, i havent ran once since hols started :P)

and finally, well in about 1 month and 6 more days, what day will it be? it will be 10 FEB!!!! ring any bell? lol!! okay, so to help you guys out :) i decided to tell you what i want :) it'll be easier than last year (i hope :P) so you can help look while looking for huihong/ jieying/ wanli's presents :)

(in according to preference)

1. PHOTO ALBUM (like those wedding pictures that kind, big big one. dont need to be black though, can be cute de :D)(dont need pictures, i have a lot :D)

2. WALLET

3. PENCIL CASE

4. OSCHOOL VOUCHERS (hahah! YES :D)

yepp, is it easy? :DD hahah! anyway, if huihong/ jieying/ wanli happen to read this post, pls write down what you want also!! if not i'm going to have a hard time finding your present :)

imPERFECT

2011-12-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

today was a awesome day. Everything started off so well: work was okay, staff lunch was super good! and then, my mum went orchard shopping, so i went too :) and bought clothes!!! (like how rare is that? :DDD) and then went to oschool and said hi to jolene ^^

and then.... PERFECT DAYS just have to be spoilt by some people...

(on the bus going home)

the bus was reaching my busstop, so i stood up and made my way to the stairs (double decker), so as i walked 1/2 steps down, i saw one aunty walking up...

aunty: 我要上去

me: errr.... 我的站要到了，我可以先下去吗？

aunty: 我要上去。你上去。(and the bus stopped at my stop) can you imagine how scared i was then? is like i miss this stop have to walk another 15 min home!! so i just "我的站到了。" and tried to kind of "slip" pass her (cause the staircase there is quite small) and she jsut stretched out her arms onto the other railing and dont let me get off...WOAH!!! i seriously 慌了, and i was like "不要关门先" and continued pushing. then she just let me go and push me at the back (i didnt fall down, luckily) but as i was tapping the card and going out, i could feel everyone staring at me. i just felt like some 千古罪人 there and then. and what sucks even more is that after i stepped out of the bus, i just started crying ): seriously, i dont know why i cried. it's just the feeling like you telling yourself "i wont cry, i wont cry" and you whole face just feels sour and the next second, tears jsut flow ): i dont know, perhaps its 委屈, cause although i really could have let her go first, but i was really scared then (scared of missing the bus, and it's like 10pm already, which is super dark) and comparing urgency, i was more urgent than her (no one is going to take her seat away).. and yeah, but perhaps things "got my way", i feel like the bad guy ): i dont know how to say it....

i just know that, sucha perfact day had to end of in tears...

when i could have been another "happy ending".....

rubbish....

2011-12-21T11:10:00.001+08:00

HEY THERE!
haha! it's been SUPER DUPER LONG since i posted! because 1. i am busy :D 2. i currently write a diary :) so wont write here as often anymore (but little ppl read this blog, so i guess it doenst matter)
yepp, so currently, i am FINDING A JOB!!! yes, i am desperately in need of a job for 1st 2 weeks of January!!!! if not i will die of boredom!!! )):
noooo!!!!
hehe... okay i am going out now :P i shall write another post later :P

I'M BACK

2011-12-09T22:13:00.002+08:00

yepp, i'm back :) hahah! hope i didnt miss out on anything :)

anyway, hongkong was really fun! :) a little lazy to list out the things i did/ places i went/ food i ate... so i shall just say that it was a really really good trip :D and well, 8 days was just right, DEFINITELY not too long (everyone tells me that you only need 5 days to walk HK) or perhaps my walking speed is a little slow? :P hehe!

okay, my brain is a little dead right now.....

so well, byebye!

HONG KONG

2011-12-07T16:30:00.002+08:00

hi people! i am in hongkong now :) no, actually, now i'm in macau and waiting at some sofa using wifi cause i cant enter the casino ): oh wells.... anyway, this tour has so far let me realised that i may suffer if i really join odac, because rite, everyday i walk like from 8.30 am- 10pm!! (of course got rest lah, but its still freaking long) but i really really want to join odac ): anyway, the MAD pres msged me the tryout dates :) hahah. so they never bo chap me afterall :) but cant make it for the tryout cuz still in hk. hehe! going overseas made me realise how busy i am :P hahah! okay, lets go back to hk :) i didnt buy any furry things!! even my so-badly-wanted beanies!!! becaue they dont have the colour i want!! ): consolation is that if i buy it i have very little chances to wear it.. but still......hiazzz... i dont really know what to say, now my mind is half dead and my feet are lifeless... it feels like walking frm my house to orchard road! oh wells.... okay, i am going off.. byebye! dont miss me too much :)

YO PEOPLE!

2011-11-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

hahah! just read on today's news about one article where the person was describing about SOOGLING (googling your name) and i decided to try it out :) hahah!! so actually, there wasnt anything about me, just realised that many people had the same name as me. anw, one link that i like was this: Dr. JINGYI TAN- SAN DIEGO hahaha!! just by the look of it, makes me feel WOAH!!! i am a "doctor" leh!!! :P hahah! okay, you can see how bored i am :P

so these days have been pretty busy. shall update you guys on my happenings!

so right, tchoukball tryout was on friday, and till now, my arms are still aching ): ystd was really busy! went for bowling and oschool recital! oschool recital was damn good!!!! :DD hehe! and today, went for a super fail shopping trip ): didnt buy anything ): but saw 2 bags which i ~~like~~ LOVE A LOT!!! its super pretty!! but its damn ex (which explains why i didnt buy it, both are close to 100 bucks) hiaz....

so anyway, went old airport road for dinner today! yes!! LAO BAN!!! awesome huh? :) hahah! ate their cha kuay tiao :) its damn nice!! but damn long queue :)) but its so awesome!!!! so anyway, quite excited for christmas this year, cause there will be a gift exchange (with relatives)... we do it like we draw lots to pick who we buy present for (which is better).. thinking of doing this for the class party, but so many people is still not confirmed ): so how? i dont know ): yeah, talking about class sleepover, everything depends on tomorrow. cause the job person will be informing tmr whether i get the job, and if i get it, i think i will only be going for the bbq at night. but i really really reallly really want the job!! i think its going to be really fun, and i am going to learn a lot and the pay is really quite good :) but the thing is, they dont want me ): (that's what i think lah)......

oh wells...... one month of holiday is almost over, and i dont even know what i have done (which means i have done nothing) OOPS!

TCHOUKBALL

2011-11-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

i am in the midst of transferring (aka writing) all my blog posts into a book. hahah! hope i wont 半途而废, as what happened to my coin purse :P and packing of room. hehehe!!

but today was such an eventful and happy day :) that i really wanted to blog :) so here i am!! yepp, so today went to try out tchoukball :) hahah! it was fun! but tiring. the coach was really super friendly :) actually, all the people there were :) which made it a lot more fun!! (really think that i will be intimidated by the MAD people ): ) anyway, saw some of my bball seniors. dont know if they recognise me, but i think they do :P hahah! yepp, other than the sun, everything was really fun!!

and it's so cool hearing "i have training" coming out from jieying + jolene + me and not from huihong! hahah!!! finally understood how tough training is.. my hand was literally shaking when i tried to refil my bottle. it's been ages since that happened (which proves to show how long i have not been exercising :P)

yepp, then later went to 313 to have lunch ALONE ): cause i went home to change and then meet them again at orchard. oh wells..... so we didnt do ~~much~~ anything today. hahah!! but it was nice just talking and all :DD

and why didnt i take physics for the science attachment?!!!!! ):

broke ):

2011-11-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

yeppp. i feel like a pauper ): there's so many things i want to buy (all my furry stuffs + a black jeans + jackets!!) yes, i saw a super pretty FOX jacket (baby blue) :D and i want it!!!! hahah! its quite similar to the one jieying and huihong wore to taiwan, just that it is a jacket,not a hoodie. the baby blue is super pretty!!! hahah! so currently, waiting for season to be over, cause i am pretty sure that it will become one of the sales item :P

and my beanies! i am in a dilemma cause it will obviously be cheaper if i buy it in hk, but then i want to wear it in hk, so it will be better if i buy it now (not that i have seen any colour that i like yet :P)

hahah! so the only good thing about the life now is that i am happy :) hahah! i have no idea why i am happy, i just feel so :P which is a good thing :) yepp, so today went to jolene's house to play billard :) followed by AMK hub. and why are there so many jobs available at AMK?!!!! and none near my house?!!!!! hahah! but now i am super tempted to buy jeans from Levi's (but its damn ex!!!!) hehe.....

packing..

2011-11-21T14:39:00.002+08:00

well, under my 'rotting @ home' plan, one of the things to do is to pack my room! Hahah! I think the last time i packed it was like last yr dec (spring cleaning) so there's quite a lot of stuffs to pack.. So right, i planning to give away my chem and physics textbook (which look BRAND NEW!!) totally waste money.. And clearing my files to prepare for nxt yr notes (heard it's gonna be a lot) but then the thing is, i dont feel like givin
g them away (which accord to my sis, is weird) true lah, since i dont think i will be needing them anymore... BUTTT., it has my handwriting on it!! Hahah! I think i am quite obsessed with myself :P no lah, i mean like, its really nice looking @ yr sec 1 handwriting and comparing it with yr sec 4 handwriting.. And u know what, i still keep my P6 zuowen!! LOL!! But it's really cute reading it :D it's like u can really see how yr thinking, writing has changed.... So yeah, i dont want to give it away ): and plus, it feels wrong to be throwing something (e.g. Bio notes) away when u once regarded it as 'my guide to getting A1 in bio'.. It used to be so important (kind of) and now u are throwing it away? ): hiazzz... But all the notes are really taking too much space..... Why?!!! I have so far only managed to find about 8cm of notes to give away, when i think ALL my notes, when really stack up together, is at least 50cm ): somebody, HELP!!

SELF-CONFESSION

2011-11-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

hahah! i shall make a self confession here: i like to stalk myself :P hahah!! okay, not really stalk stalk, just looking thru all the FB photos :DDD and i dont know why, makes me feel really happy :DD hahah!! perhaps because you always smile when you take photos, thats why it makes it feel like you were really happy then and there :)

hahah!! so right, cause i looked from the latest photos back to the old ones, you can really see my fringe moving from side to center :P ahahahah!!! makes me want to laugh at myself :) hahah! but i guess, it's always the silly things that make our past so interesting and fun!!

really glad that FB was invented :) Many thanks to Mark Zuckerberg :D hehe!

HAPPY!

2011-11-18T21:19:00.001+08:00

i finally understood why 杨梅枝 always say 总结是最重要的 :D

no matter how boring, how tiring, how xian i was preparing for the presentation. i must say that, because of today, i really enjoyed this attachment :) or perhaps it is because i am in a super good mood today, super happy and i seriously dont know why :P perhaps this is what they called 雨过天晴 :P

yepp, personally i really enjoyed the presentation. so weird huh? for the FIRST time, listening to three straight presentations, i didnt even feel like sleeping :D in fact, i was quite attentive and more or less got some concepts :) good huh? :) and in fact, i was quite happy with out final presentation product :D hahah! so anyway, we were the last group, and well... nobody asked any questions (which was good :D), cause it was too cheem :P the name itself sounds cheem, our project title was called "Synthesis and characterization of pentaamminechlorocobalt(III) chloride and hexaaminecobalt(III) chloride" :D hahah!! to be frank, by now, i still dont really understand what a coordinate complex and ligand is. but i roughly get the idea :)

so anyway, actually the experiment was not as hard as it sounds. i mean, you just add this and add that, and ta-da, you get the product :D and i like our products, because it is super pretty :))

yes, transition metals are so cool :) so right, our mentor was trying to explain to us why transition metals change colour, i sort of understood but sort of dont :P although she already explained it quite a few times... but it has something to do with the 3d subshell orbital and the arrangement of the electron :) LOL!!

yeah, but what i really love is the complementary colour circle (that's what i call it :P) its like, something appears say yellow because purple (the colour opposite it is absorbed by the substance) cool huh? :D

hahah! i am like giving a chemistry lesson now :P

but actually we did a little on biology too :) cause our mentor was super nice! and brought us to the cell culture lab :) and her friend showed us how breast and liver cancer cells looked like under the light microscope!!! :D super cool right? (cancer cells leh!!) the liver cancer cells was triangular (and grow in clusters) and the breast cancer cells looked elongated. but although it sounds dangerous, it isnt.. hahah! cause cancer isnt contagious. yepp, but the microscope @ IMRE is soo much better than the one in school. you can see the nucleus and shape super clearly :D

okay, enough of all these...so today, i went to the? SCIENCE CANTEEN :) the best food in this 5 days :) but the most expensive one also :P hahah! cause i ate in a cafe like place :P yepp, so in this 5 days, i came to realise that i quite like the NUS environment :) hahah! and you know we have to do some stupid reflections on "list 3 things you learn about yourself".. i tell you, it is seriously brain draining. because it's like in this 5 days, if everyday you learn 3 things about yourself, you learn1 5 things altogether!! so on the day 5 reflection, i just wrote: i realised i understand myself quite well, as i cannot think of any other things i learnt about myself :P (i really wrote that okay :P) hahah!!

okay, then we went to the CLEAN ROOM (the name so cool right? hahah! i wonder if there is a "dirty room" :P) yeah, its quite cool. i quite like the bunny suit (its like a jumper) :P

and then, we played BRIDGE AND TAIDI!!! like OMG!! i havent touched cards in i-dont-know-how-long. okay, i admit i am quite a "gambler" hahah!! but BRIDGE!!! i miss bidding for 4!! its super shiok!! hahah! but wasnt very lucky today, cards werent that good to bid for 4... oh wells....

and then, there's the BBQ :D it was good (other than the fact that practically everything was meat: Satay, chicken wing, sausages, meat patty) and there was also noodles, otah, spring roll, curry veg. and almond longan :D it was quite good :)

so anyway, the director treated us cuz he was supposed to give the welcome address but he had some conference thingg on mon and he wanted to make it up for it. but anyway, he has a chen show mao's feel :) (jolene thinks so too) so i think jieying will really like him :P hahah!! okay, can really see that he is really passionate about science, and really 关心莘莘学子 (hah! i studied for chinese okay? :D) cause he went to every table to talk to us :) and he was really 慈祥 and nice to talk to :)

yepp, so in conclusion, the TANGIBLE things i got from this science attachment include: a pen, a memo pad, a mug, a notebook (they super duper 用心! they took a group pic of us on day 3/4 and they pasted it on the cover of the notebook!! :D super touched ^^) and the intangible things include: knowledge, and hands-on experience, and seeing how high tech. stuffs (e.g. UV-vis spectrometer, NMR) works :D (sounds scary huh?)

yepp...and so with that (and the really pretty sunset view from the open area @ IMRE), i ended my science attachment, and with that, THE OFFICIAL START OF MY SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!! ^^ whee :)

AHHH!!!

2011-11-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

today, i finally understood what INEFFICIENCY meant!! seriously ):

super irritated and worse still, have to control control control!! but jolene can read my face expressions damn well!!! 真不愧是我的大姐 :D

okay, so doing group work with other people made me realise how AWESOME JIEYING, HUIHONG, JOLENE, WANLI IS!!! we work SOOOO well together....

i must take this chance to praise all of you man!! cause i really really realized how AWESOME a team we were :D (i know we were good, but i didnt know we were beyond GOOD :D) perhaps this is called 失去了才懂得拥有的可贵 ):

because sad thing is, there wont be anymore chance ): since nxt yr on, we will be going on "separate" ways ): why? why do you guys (specifically: jieying, jolene, wanli) want to take B?!!! hiazzz...

okay, so well, this failed GCP, didnt do/learn much. i guess the only interesting thing i did was i ate in 4 out of 7 of the NUS canteen? hah! if i eat in another one tmr, it will be 5 :)

PHOTOSHOP!

2011-11-12T14:50:00.002+08:00

yepp, this is the product of my photoshop :) quite happy with it :DD at least, all 4 years of memories are inside it :) although there are still a lot that i didnt managed to add ):

anyway, just realised that i really took a lot of photos with wanli :P why didnt i see them when i was making the cards? :P oh wells.......

11/11/11

2011-11-11T09:38:00.002+08:00

today feels more like CNY :D yeah, i am being random :P but the feeling is like CNY, the sun, the wind, and the atmosphere (cause my dad not working today)... so yeah, feels like in a while time i will be going to my ama house to drink chengteng :D (which brings me back: how am i going to buy my CNY clothes?!!!)

anyway, today is 11/11/11 but i didnt plan anything today ): which means i am not going ):

oh wells, but i have stuffs to do at home, cause i am currently quite into photoshop (although i am a noob at at D:) but well, it's turning out quite well, although i havent finished it yet. shall upload once i finished :)

hahah! just read jieying's blog. i dont understand leh, is kezhendong THAT shuai? no what. personally, i think aoquan is cuter :P hahah!! but yeah lah, kezhendong is shuai lah.

yepp, have been wanting to go out shopping lately, but why are all the clothes winter clothes? the bad thing about living in SG ):

《那些年，我们一起追过的女孩》

2011-11-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

two words to describe today: simply awesome :D

today, was freedom :) because higher chinese o' levels is over!! :D (not that i have been studying very hard for it :P)

and with freedom, comes happiness!! :DDDD yes, today is the official premier for 那些年. and yepp, we went to Cathay Cine to watch :) the best cinema with the best popcorn ^^ hahah, anyway i watched the 幕后花絮 yesterday.... but luckily it wasnt much of a spoiler, since they didnt reveal a lot of the plot (by the way, i read the book before)... but it was still good :) or rather, very good :D thought it was much better than the book :D hahah! cause i like 九把刀's plot but not really his writing :P anyway, 后青春的诗 is nice too :D

and right, i finally understood why this show was NC16 -.- but it feels damn great to be 16 (for ONCE). hahah! especially when huihong said a group of people were freaking out when they needed to check ICs (before you enter the cinema) LOL! super happy that i turned 16 this year. so it's actually not that bad to be 16 :D 初老症状第一条：可以看NC16的电影 (looks familiar?)

anyway, i watched the专访 yesterday, and what 敖犬 said was totally "WOAHH!!", so i shall quote 九把刀：

敖犬他其实很诚恳耶……我在选敖犬的时候，选到他，我跟他立刻讲说，我希望你可以摆脱棒棒堂的一个形象，然后认真演戏。我希望你可以透过这一个电影成为一个真正的演员。但是敖犬马上非常帅的回应我。他说：刀哥谢谢你给我这样子的一个机会演出你的电影，但是我觉得虽然棒棒堂已经过去了，但是棒棒堂没有不好。我觉得我咬一棒棒堂为荣。我要用棒棒堂的精神老严浩这样子的一个角色 :D

and after this :) i went to O school :DD hahah! the choreo was awesome!! :D and then the best thing that could ever happen, just as i was walking to the busstop, 174 CAME!! like it actually CAME!! (you can see how long i usually wait for the bus :P) yepp, so since it came, i decided not to go to ION to find the rest (yeah, they are there eating dessert! i also want! but it will be quite stupid of me to go down and join them for another 20 minutes right? since they leaving in 20 minutes time :P) oh wells, so i am back, to my home sweet home ^^

10 Nov 2011 :) a day to be remembered

A's

2011-11-08T20:18:00.002+08:00

so yepp, today is the start of A levels. to all taking A levels, jiayous!! (although it is coming a little late :P) but heard the chem paper (tdy) was hard.

oh wells, but two years from now, it will be ME taking it. hahah! quite hard to imagine how it will be like, how things would have changed.

just like when i first came to NY, its hard to imagine myself now, already graduated and going to take HCl in two days time.....

how things changed, when you dont even really realise it....

let's do a test here. from what i have written above, can you guess what i am feeling now?

a. happy

b. emo

c. depressed

d. over the moon

e. restless (nothing to do)

well, the answer is...... A (see how well you understand me :D) hahaha!!!

ok, i am being random. dont know why i am so happy. but i saw this really cute and small bag in west mall today :)))) it looks like those toddler carry one! so i am thinking whether i should buy it (yes, ~~adults~~ teens can wear it too :D) cause the length is adjustable :DD hahah!! i guess me liking something is like finding a needle in a haystack (hahah!! random proverb) yeah, so you can imagine how happy when you find that needle :D and well, i am watching office girl (Yes, jolene, i am WATCHING IT!) lol! qiuze is really cute :) he looks so much better with short hair. he looks like an emo kid with long hair...

so right, i am currently ATTEMPTING to read chinese zuowen. have been effective in forcing myself to finish 2 lijie today (not bad actually).. oh wells, jiayous for O's!!

THREE....

2011-11-02T17:45:00.002+08:00

watched finished ep 7 of wo ke neng bu hui ai ni :) got more interesting after ding li wei appeared :) hahah!!

anyway, really very happy that ymz can remember my name!!! :D must be cause i did super badly for chinese. HAHAH! but its like OMG! SHE REMEMBERED MY NAME!!! ^^

hahah!! and eh pls people, dont get yr expectations too high (for my card).. i will stress one leh :P

tomorrow's going to be awesome!

4th LAST DAY OF SCHOOL...

2011-11-01T18:39:00.002+08:00

seriously impressed by huihong's imitating skills. this time, it was me she was imitating. so actually right, i cant really judge, but aiya, what she says sounds like me :P oops!

didnt know i like that one leh. and seriously, i dont find my voice high :P as what ALL of you say.. i think it sounds pretty much in the normal range, not that high lorh! but hh imitate me until super funny! it made me think of maggie (wo ke neng bu hui ai ni)... but luckily i am ~~not that irritating~~ not irritating at all :)

whee ^^ thanks yiyun for once again convincing me to take PCME, even though there is still that slight chance i might want to be a doctor :) and i am quite certain (as of now) that i am NOT going to go for SMTP. going to take the test though, for fun :) hahah!!!

yepp, today's talk made me excited for JC life. hope it's going to be fun!

THE FINAL SHOWDOWN

2011-10-31T20:58:00.004+08:00

so according to the list, i am the last 3rd in class ): stupid msg ): makes me scared of A's, even though it is like in 2 years time... i think i will confirm have 2 B/Cs alr (econs and GP) ahh!! somebody helpme!!! who cares about percentage lah? like seriously ):

anyway, realised that sometimes i can a little too judgemental, and sometimes i words come out of my mouth without going thru my head. so sorry for those who i unintentionally offended :P

so anyway, i really went to watch wo ke neng bu hui ai ni.. and the first episode is FREAKING SLOW ): i watch until i want to die leh :P so i stopped at part 5 :P hahah! i think i am more used to fast-paced dramas, like VAMPIRE DIARIES ^^ but i WILL continue to watch it, since my sis said its only the 1st episode liddat. hope it's true :)

and yepp, sorry jieying, cuo4 guai4 ni le :P thought you went home without me :P

....

2011-10-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

finished making 3 cards. what a wonderful progress ): i think right, i may not be doing it for all who i planned to do after all ): blame it on my inefficiency ): and loads of chinese papers which i have yet to finish ):

so anyway, thanks wanli and jieying! bought felt at Daiso! super pretty :) hahah! but it didnt turn out as nice as expected. but i think it is still nice :P, even if not nice, must also tell me its nice okay? really put quite a bit of effort into it :) hahah!

so anyway, my first elementary 1 (japanese) finished :) hahah! still a lot of ??? here and there, and speak really weird... but well, they really teach very well, because it didnt seem really hard (or perhaps, the hard parts have yet to arrive :P) yepp..

and right, today my aunt bought the beancurd from old changi road!!!! AHHHH!!! hahah!! and what's better? she bought extra, so i will be having it for tea tomorrow!! :) whee ^^ it's really damn good :) she bought the almond one, super xiang1! but it tastes more like pudding then beancurd. okay, not really pudding, but in between lah :)

yepp :) this week is gonna be a busy week.....

shall go and do my chinese now, byebye!

what's the point?

2011-10-25T18:54:00.002+08:00

how true...

but then, is it really possible not to have expectations? quite impossible actually huh?

so well, expected myself to cry, but i didnt. quite shocked myself too. or perhaps i never cry after looking at marks, but i will cry BEFORE looking at marks (like IH). perhaps all of these is just part of my weird character ):

so well, feel quite in a trance actually. like i go "OOH! i did really badly ))): ", but i feel like "Oh ok, i did badly..." (see the difference?) dont really know how to say it either.

but well, my 'really badly' is REALLY BADLY....

and sometimes, i dont really want to tell anyone HOW badly i did, because sometimes, it just makes matters worse when they say "how come?" ):

because sometimes, when you tell someone something, you didnt tell them for the sake of letting them KNOW, you told them for them to comfort you. and perhaps, it is too much a request to ask for....

:)

2011-10-23T17:51:00.001+08:00

just wanted to share something :)

APOLOGIES

2011-10-22T17:45:00.002+08:00

really really very sorry ): didnt know the organization would be so screwed ):

.....

2011-10-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

i started on my FIRST letter, wrote two sentences, and then.... stuck ):

its like when i dont feel like writing, i have damn lot of stuffs to write. and when i sit down, hold my pen, and say "ok, let's start", nothing comes out ): what is this? )):

on the side note, i realised that "sorry" works wonders. it can like put out the fire in someone, and then, there will be peace.... but the thing is, one must be willing to say it. isnt it?

what's worse is that you dont even feel that a "sorry" is required....

realization

2011-10-18T21:54:00.003+08:00

Yes, its over, its FINALLY OVER :)
anyway, i realised that friends help .me to understand myself better
1. I laugh at stuffs related to animals (although hypothesis isnt really proven... Haha, so science right? :D )
2. I like furry stuffs (this one i admit lah, but its really nice, other than the fact that it is nt suitable to wear in sg D:)
3. I always have the mindset that if i want this, i dont want anything else (hahah! It is really true, hh understands me so well! Hahah!:)

on the side note, quite sad that you can no longer chat in a chat room ):

1 more day to freedom :)

2011-10-17T14:03:00.002+08:00

it seems like my 'no discussing strategy really works'.. Although i still did discuss that little but :P but at least i dont feel like i flunked the papers although i dont think i am going to do very well. Hahah! My gut feeling is quite accurate one, i think :)
so anyway, cant believe 3 weeks is going to pass since EOY started. And it's going to end tomorrow :) whee ^^
really looking forward to going out to play.. Its been ages since i had been able to do that :)

:D

2011-10-15T08:21:00.004+08:00

yo people! another buffet place to go :) 汕头海鲜@ Toa Payoh Blk 181 Toa Payoh Lorong 4 #02-60

yeah, it is some seafood shop (i think, from the name) but it is a tim sum buffet! :) hahah!! it looks quite good in the show yesterday :) and is high tea buffet. i think 16.80++ from 3-6... sounds good right? :DD HAHAH!

vampire diaries was SUPER GOOD :DDD

and yepp, i am very happy today :) for dont know what reason. ok, byebye!

lunch

2011-10-14T13:31:00.002+08:00

yepp... Today's lunch was fun! Hahah! Took a total of 2 buses and walked a total of at least 1km :) good exercise huh? Hahah!
So anyway, today was IM2... A 2 1/2 hr long paper.. And we got thru it! :) and i used a total of 11 pieces of paper for 15 questions. How pro am i? Hahah! I asked for paper twice leh... First time keep asking for paper :P anyway, it was good that i didnt discuss much...
So now, proceeding to chem, physics and IM1 revision. I guess i shall start with IM1 first, since my probability is really bad ): hiaz....okay, jiayous people! 3 more papers to freedom! :)
vampire dairies will only out tomorrow ):

5 more days, 4 more papers

2011-10-13T16:19:00.003+08:00

today was bad, really bad. ): i dont know why it was bad, but it just is, especially bio paper 2. actually after handing in the bio paper, i was quite happy, because 'it's over!' but after overhearing a few discussion, i was like 'no, its a fail' ok lah, not fail lah.. but it's gonna be real bad ): so right, i dont dare discuss, its better to think that u are correct than know that u are wrong. at least u feel better, FOR NOW. because 'ignorance is reallt bliss'....hiaz... damn scary. But after this bio, i am even more convinced that i am NOT going to take bio in jc. I am practically dead trying to cram everthing into my brain lah... so in a way, this is the last time i am ever going to touch bio.(hopefully)
now, i have this voice inside my mind that all the papers we have been thru, i am going to die ): this is the HORROR OF EOY ):
Right now, feelibg a jittery about tomorrow math paper. Hope i will know how to the questions because not knowing how to do yr best subject is really most depressing situation ever. Wish me luck! :)

my life

2011-10-11T17:29:00.001+08:00

just woke up from my long deprived afternoon nap (i forgot how long i slept cause i dont remember what time i slept) but feeling rechatged now :) yepp. this time next week, ALL exams will be over! and its going to be party time! ^^ anyway, today's SIL talk made me really excited for ccas in JC. i wanna join oudac (is that how u spell it? i guess so) it sounds really fun! it sounds like OBS other than perhaps u get to try more activites as compared to OBS. happy that i persuaded jolene to join oudac with me ^^

ups and downs

2011-10-09T16:40:00.002+08:00

EOY period is like a roller costa ride, other than the fact that it is much worse, because you never know when are you going to suddenly drop ): so anyway, i had one of my worst mornings today ): so as some of u know, i have jap lessons. and perhaps because i am on the bus and there is really nothing much to do, yr mind just wanders about. and i dont know why i suddenly thought of zuowen. and the more i think of it, the more i think that i li2 ti2. at that point of time, i was like OMG!! i li2 ti2!! and it was seriously like adrenaline rush and i was at a loss of what to do. but its not like i can do anything right? ): so as you can see, i have calm down quite a lot. but still, there is still this tugging feeling that my chinese is going to fail ): and to think a few days a go i was like over the moon that chinese compo, la and IH was FINALLY OVER. hate this suspense thinking that u flunk yr paper and u badly want to know how badly u did, but u have to wait a freaking 2 weeks before scripts are being returned ): hiazzz.... not like i can change anything. but just pray that this wont affect my other subjects... and it is a good thing that i calmed down this fast although i am still sad ): 2 more weeks yeah...i shall tell myself this: YOU CAN DO IT! (and i hope i really can) and i pray that i wont break down when i get back my zuowen ): gosh! its like IH replay back again (maybe i will even start crying before i even see the marks D:) perhaps the only consolation is that: i didnt regret writing that zuowen. ),: (i hope jieying and huihong dont see this as another bet again. gambling isnt good, ok? and i think i will bake after EOYs, no matter what my results are)... but well, jieying! get ready yr tissue box FOR ME! :) omg! i am already feeling jittery at the thought of getting back my papers (and there is still another LA compre) gosh! wish me luck!

UNTITLED

2011-10-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

tired of mugging? well, i am here to brighten your day :) HAHAH!!

anyway, yesterday i was kind of filing my 4cm thick stack of worksheets, and then i suddenly realised that I HAVENT RETURN THE CHEM O BOOK TO THE LIBRARY YET!!!! O.O it was apparently due somewhere in september, which means THE FINE IS GOING TO BE LIKE !!!!!! but luckily wanqing said that apparently jiani returned the book one year late and she wasnt fined. so i guess i am saved? :))

anyway, i am kind of in a holiday mood now (OH NO!!) and i guess its simply because IH is over. the rigour is still there (which is good) but dont feel the sense of urgency as much as previously, which is good cause i wont be so stressed ^^

anyway, i dont know why but i am really looking forward to monday :) it feels like its going to be more of fun and laughter than serious mugging... haha! i guess friends really make my life AWESOME! :D

anyway, still thinking of what i should get for audrey. feel really tempted to make a scrapbook or something of that sort.. but need a lot of time + effort + creativity (which i badly lack D:) oh wells...

today's dinner going to be good :)) its been AGES since i have eaten out (like restaurant). and i might as well do a little bit of shopping. hope i see something i like :)

what a day!

2011-10-07T13:51:00.002+08:00

the day that i have been fearing, the paper that i dread the most, is finally over :)

but to be frank, i feel jittery about it. i dont know why... but i am so not going to worry about it until when we get back our results :)

hahah! so anyway, since i have been studying humanities for the past one week (YES, since LAST FRIDAY), do you think that my blogging skills improved? :P as in, i am totally in this humanities mood now... trying hard to switch into maths and science mode.. the "technical" mode...

yepp. but seriously feel like i am flying :) 'cause largely due to the fact the subsequent subjects i have more confidence in getting my As :) so not that scared....

anyway, went to have a mini celebration after IH :) ate pepper lunch at AMK hub. that was totally much needed, since its been so freaking long since i actually shopped :)

oh wells.. i shall enjoy today before starting my revision. cant let myself die out before the final day. and jiayous people!!

iHumanities

2011-10-06T19:15:00.002+08:00

today is a 'i' day ):

actually, dont really feel much, just that feel like the world lost one genius ): hope apple products continue to be good :)

so anyway, came to realise how small my brain is. because i cant fit 6 factors into it: environmental (industrialization and pursuit for economic growth) and conflict (divided loyalties, segregated education, unequal job opportunities, and unequal housing) yes, i am not planning to do voting rights. if voting rights come up, i will CRY ),: so please, voting rights, DONT come out!!!

and what's worse? i have to cram South Africa's poverty stats into my little brain ):

and they say IH isnt about regurgitation? ): its regurgitation with some TWEAKING of the sentences lorh!! ):

12 1/2 hours more to the deadliest exam of the year ): wish me luck!

MIRACLE

2011-10-06T13:12:00.002+08:00

i badly need a miracle ): to not fail my compre ): seriously ):

i am will be happy if i get two digits, ecstatic if i get 13 (which is a 50% pass), and OVER THE MOON if i can actually pass 60%

yes, its that hard ): or its just that i am too dumb ): when i was reading the passage, and doing the questions, well, i kind of already know that i am going to get a single digit ): why?!!!!

:'(

2011-10-05T14:46:00.003+08:00

CAUTION: I CRIED WATCHING THIS

and this is freaking good!!

seriously, what am i doing watching all these videos? ):

2011-10-01T22:55:00.001+08:00

LIM HUIHONG!

2011-10-01T20:04:00.002+08:00

OMG!! EHH!! HUIHONG DELETE YR LATEST POST LEH!!! i anyhow write one. i didnt even know i published it!!! i thought i saved it as draft lah!!!!

DELETE DELETE DELETE!!

COUNTING DOWN: 5 DAYS

2011-10-01T19:20:00.003+08:00

i dont deny the fact that i am weird :P because i am feeling more and more calm as THE DAY approaches. it's gonna be fine :) i hope....

so anyway, read the news yesterday, and they said AEROPOSTALE was going to open one outlet in ION!!! O.O its going to be great! but i think it will be a lot more expensive than the outlet prices (obviously, but still.... ): )

yepp, so anyway.. on friday, i watched this variety show where they bring you to all the buffet places!!! :) so wonderful right? and then there was this buffet at MBS which sounds + looks good :) lol!! but it cost like $54!!! hahah! i dont even know what is our budget :P

but i think hotel buffets all around this price right?

anyway, vampire diaries ep 3 wasnt as nice as expected, but its still nice :) hahah! but the thing was, i am now going back to season 2 to rewatch :P because it's so good!!

before i forget, HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY EVERYONE! :)

out of steam...

2011-09-27T12:07:00.002+08:00

i still dont get it, why do everyone say that i am very hiong? i dont even feel that i am hiong, cause i dont seem to get anything done when i am at home ): hahah! but it is ok to be hiong, cause it's EOYs people!!! the final year u know!! hahah! still troubled over whether i shld go for grad night. the pros and cons seem to of equal weightage... on one hand, its the last major event, and can go and take pics with teachers (as last memories)... but then, i still have to go and find a dress (and u know how hard it can get for me, being so picky :P) and plus i still have my yin1 ying3 and plus the date is really shitty ): so as i was already out of steam, jieying asked me to do what i like to do. hahah! but that really stumbled me. what do i like to do, seriously? i dont have any idea.. u know. well i like dance, but going to dance meant 3 hours gone (mainly cuz of transport).... ahh well, mugging life means no life ): but i am already super excited for my trip to hong kong!! hahah! never been to hk before other than the few hours when we were in transit to go to new york. its going to be awesome!!! all the dian xin and portugese egg tart in macau!! and plus after eoys mean flea! and shopping :))) whee ^^ but first, i need to tide thru this first...... hoping that i still have some reserve fuel. its the last lap.... so well, jiayous people!!

dead ):

2011-09-23T21:47:00.003+08:00

i am a walking zombie ): mugging life = no life ):

but if i go out, i will feel damn guilty ): what a sad life ):

and why isnt vampire diaries ep 2 out yet??!!!! ):

HOW TRUE

2011-09-21T18:15:00.002+08:00

TOTALLY TRUE!!! (except for no.2 maybe?) hahah! wanted to find some inspiring quotes to motivate me. found this instead :)

Notes, notes and more notes....

2011-09-20T19:13:00.002+08:00

PE was super fun today :)) played captain's ball and huihong is freaking good!!! She can jump damn high!! Bu4 kui1 shi4 ge4 high jumper :) suPer happy that it rained, because I am really a bit tired of tennis.. Because I think for every tennis lesson, I pick up at least 100 tennis balls.. But anyway I think my forehand improved, but till now I still cant do a proper serve ): oh wells...
Yepp, so anyway, I think I'm a bit mean (ok not a bit, is very) cause I playedfor all 3 rounds :p but it was really really very fun!!! Especially the last match, I don't know why everyone was super hiong, but it was super duper fun :))) haha!! Love our class (copy jieying :p) but who ask 401 to be so awesome!! :)) I sincerely pray that it is going to rain tomorrow :))
So anyway, vampire diaries is freaking good!! Watched 1st ep of season 3 yesterday.. I cried ok, and some of you know how hard it is for me to cry when watching shows.. But I think u must watch season 2 first before season 3 if nt I think u will be more of ??? than 'awwww...' but anyway the Elena is super pretty (real name: Nina dobrev) and Damon is shuai too!!! Hahah!!! Hope season 3 continues to be good...
And now I want to buy the DVD for vampire diaries!!! Waiting for poh khim to have discount :)
My eye clinic trip was super horrible ): waited damn long just to get REGISTERED (plus we had an appointment) and it freaking ex!!

Letting go...

2011-09-19T20:49:00.002+08:00

Really got a little too stressed these few days, until I think I was really getting crazy. Haha! I think partly because it's the final year, and the heavy weightage, plus the strong desire to do well made me so stressed... But thanks yiyun!! Really felt a lot better after you sort of kai1 dao3 me :) and omg!!! The 9/24 thing is so funny!!! Hahah!! Friends make my life awesome :) so today was pretty relaxing, I think because I didn't really feel guilty when I was playing around, and it is seriously making me a happier person :) yay!! I think he previous time I was this stressed was like 4 years ago.. Yeah PSLE, I think the thought of major exams are make me freak out.. But thankfully now that I kan4 kai1 already, my expectations (for my results) kind of dropped.. Now I am in the 'just do your best and just accept the results' mode, which is good :))) anyway, as I have told some of you guys, he 10 year series that o blunt diet have the full answers, so o borrowed huihong's.. And you know what? Some of the MCQ answers don't tally!!! So I have no idea which is the correct one... And one questions I really think that the answer so A but the two answer keys say is B )): what is this?!!
So anyway, since I dont feel like doing anything now, I am blogging... But now there aren't much nice videos to watch and plus I am not really a 'running man' fan... Waiting for vampire diaries season 3 to come out. I think it's going to come out soon.. Go check later :) but it better pls be good :) season 2 was damn good :))) but I don't know why jolene they'll dun want to watch it ): and plus, I think the female lead is really pretty :))

drained ):

2011-09-14T20:47:00.002+08:00

the third day of school and i am already in this state. what is this? ):

FIRST DAY OF THE DREADED TERM...

2011-09-12T15:00:00.002+08:00

anyway, happy mid autumn festival everyone!! :) i want to eat my yam mooncake which my mum doesnt want to buy for me ):

so anyway, school started today :) quite happy to see friends i havent seen for one week :)) and i dont know my table became super dirty ): yepp, so from today onwards, i am going to mug like xiao (hopefully)

because i already have plans for post-EOYs :)

1. go to kbox to study for higher chinese :P

2. hopefully i can finish my purse (i havent even bought any cloth which i was supposed to buy over the hols)

3. plan for chalet (yes, need more people so that each person pay less.... and anyone is NTUC member can help me book chalet? i want to book coasta sands one)

hahah! it's going to be fun :)

ok, byebye!!!

updates

2011-09-07T18:25:00.002+08:00

half of september hols are officially gone ): not that i did much....

anyway, i didnt go to H&M because i would be really crazy to go and queue just to get in....i guess i will probably wait until the craze is over first bah....

so anyway, here is what i did.

- 1 chem test paper

- read newspapers (to improve general knowledge, i hope it helps)

- math (yes! i really did a lot of math from revision booklet)

- bio

the way i am studying now is really different from the previous years. i dont know whether that is good or bad. in a way, i dont know how much i really know and how much i dont know. because i just look at the questions and then i just do. and if i dont know, then i go and read up. so its really hard to gauge since i dont go by topic and topic and if there so happens to be some question which i dont see, perhaps i wont even touch the topic :S (am i making sense?) but in a way, this way of studying is more fun (for me), as in its not as dry as reading and memorizing but it's really like in a way doing tow things at one go... hope it helps :)

so yeah, i cant really tell you how much i did, just that well, i really DID STUDY (a good thing :D) hahah!! but still, i dont feel the rigor and the pressing need to study for the upcoming EOYs ):

have been a really good girl these days, cause i didnt go out ^^ but that means that i really see any interesting things/ people ):

anyway, i finished watching running man (i only watched the episode with changmin and yunho :P) hahah! the masquerade game is cool, but subsequently is really quite boring :P

MUST WATCH!!!!

2011-09-03T22:46:00.001+08:00

THIS GUY IS FREAKINGGGGG GOOOD!!!!!! MUST WATCH!!!!!!

MUGGGG

2011-09-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

i seriously need to MUGGGG right now!!!!! so why am i sitting down here?!!!!! seriously ): the moment i on-ed the computer trying to do some USEFUL stuffs, i end up doing REDUNDANT STUFFS ): crap ): its the september holidays people!! after this "holiday", its TERM 4!!!! :S

so what am i doing now?!!!! (i am blogging D: ) and what did i did yesterday? (baked? D: ) and where am i going to go tomorrow? (H&M.... happy but yet D: ) i am so going to die....

anyway, in case if you were wondering, yes, i went to NUS and sat down there for 3 hours trying to do some physics questions that i never knew the answer too. the only consolation is that I ACTUALLY KNEW HOW TO DO ONE QUESTION ^^ you cant count it one, because technically speaking, its only part a......so anyway, i realised that NUS is really old :P

if only mugging was as easy as it seems...... ):

stuffs

2011-09-02T21:11:00.002+08:00

well, today while i was writing my zuowen. i suddenly thought of something. i suddenly thought of how when we were young, parents, teachers always tell us not to accept things (e.g. sweets) from strangers. and then i thought, perhaps that is why, our guard towards strangers have been so strong always. but the thing is that, majority of strangers are nice (i think). and perhaps it is because of this pre-perception that ALL STRANGERS ARE BAD GUYS make people unfriendly. i dont know, i mean, everyday everyone tells you that strangers mean harm to you, and when one thing gets said too many times, it becomes the truth..... perhaps because we are so wary of those around us, that we often forget to lend a helping hand to them....

yeah, i think i am thinking too much (as always -.-) maybe i should go and become some psychologist instead of my diplomat :P

oh yeah, so anyway, i baked again today, partly cause it was quite boring :P but it didnt really turn out well ): those that smelt burnt tastes ok, in fact, they taste better than those that didnt smell burnt. anyway, i am bringing some to school tomorrow :) its brown (not because its burnt, but cause its supposed to be double choc chip) yepp :)

TEACHER'S DAY CELEBERATIONS

2011-09-01T16:33:00.002+08:00

so funny how teacher's day celebrations is held on 1 september (the day which is usually teacher's day)... so anyway, i bought teachers apples ^^ its damn nice ok? super sweet and crunchy :) that's why i only gave to 3 teachers and left the rest for myself :P

so anyway, the concert was quite ok (but not really what i expected though)... the back part was a lot better (the council's performance and teacher's performance). but anyway, coming to think of it. it's a little sad that this will be the last year i will be sitting in the hall watching teacher's day concert ): yes, i think i am starting to miss ny a little. or perhaps, the people, since the people are the ones who make my life in ny so awesome :) but it just felt kind of sad....

so anyway, my sis came back from hall today :) and i talked to her for two hours!! O.O my study plan totally went down the drain cause subsequently i had piano until like now... but oh wells, she had a lot of stories to tell and it was really interesting ^^

and plus i want to watch dong bang series of running man now.. but i kinda forgot the website :P oops!!!

ME

2011-08-30T21:05:00.002+08:00

yes ME is my new name :) and SO is just SO NICE :)

quite a lot of stuffs happened lately, so i thought i might just blog about it....

first things first, JB trip was fun :) in a way, i experienced a lot of things i never did before (partly cause i seldom go to malaysia) but it was really an enriching experience. different people, different cultures, different experiences..... it was really interesting :)

and the things there are really cheap :) although i didnt buy a lot of things. and the food is really good :) i love their paos!! its super duper soft, and i love their chao guo tiao (although its a little salty), but the guo tiao is super duper chewy ^^

came back on sunday night. monday was pretty slack, but really had a good rest :) and then today...well, today was quite productive in the sense that i actually finished writing ZUO WEN :D now, trying hard to convince myself to study for rates of reaction for tomorrow's quiz :S (i shall do it after this post, i HOPE...)

other stuffs? yepp, i went to taka to shop + try mooncakes. but i didnt actually get to try a lot, because there are just so many people ): and plus sales people always give my parents first before i actually get to sample ): but oh wells, its okay....

ELEVEN

2011-08-25T19:03:00.002+08:00

yepp, it is two digit. not feeling really happy nor sad, just kind of relieved? (because luckily i didnt make the bet? hahah! i dont know...) while SWH was going through the paper, i suddenly realised how much i learnt, and didnt, and in a way, it was quite a peculiar feeling. like i knew this concept, but if you ask me to apply, i dont think i can do it, just like last week.

so anyway, i have some stuffs i would like to say, it's going to be quite emotional (and definitely biased) but i still want to say it:

we can never control what people want to say. we can never control how others feel about you. but you have to learn to accept, dont you? you can't expect the whole world to stop and care about you just because you are feeling down. life still goes on. you fall down, you get up. that's the way the world works. if you fall down, and people laugh, let them laugh... you have no power to control that. but you have the power and you SHOULD have the strength to get up and carry on. prove them wrong....

and then, one should never impose your thoughts and feelings on others, WANTING them to FEEL the SAME. you are just making life difficult for them....

so anyway, there are just some people who i really find difficulty talking to them. and sometimes, finding a topic can be so hard, yet the silence is so awkward.....

perhaps to make it sound scientific, oil and water can never mix, no matter how hard you try.

BROWNIES

2011-08-22T15:55:00.002+08:00

yay!! glad it was nice :DDDD super accomplished ^^ it's so rare that it is successful :) or perhaps brownies are easier to bake than cakes :) i am happy anyway....

and i need inspiration for my chinese compo. i have been writing bao zhang bao dao until i dont really know how to write ji xu wen... and that's why i want to write ji xu wen badly this time round ): but i dont know what to write. actually, i have one quite good idea for the fish and water thingg, but then..... i need more time. to hand in on wednesday is definitely NOT ENOUGH TIME ): so i might as well do on another topic... oh wells.

so anyway, hh and gjy said i was weird ): because i am finding loads of rubbish to do when i am supposed to be studying for EOYs ))): but because everything stops (cca and stuffs), then got more time to do other stuffs what, isnt it? because i suddenly realised that i have a lot of things that i really want to do/ get. such as the purse :)) i havent even buy the lcoth yet lorh, wait until sept hols bah......

hahah!! anyway, today CCT was the best entertainment of my life :) free performance + free "commentator" = super duper funny!!! but the lyrics are not bad :)

FINAL ASSESSMENT

2011-08-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

It was horrible. I just hope I get a two digit mark ( FYI, it's upon 40) I studied okay, although I didnt burn the midnight oil and whatever stuffs, I really read through all the topics, tried a few questions here and here..... BUT I STILL CANT DO IT ): it made me realize after all my studying, I still couldn't do it, and this feeling really sucks ): its not like I didn't bother, it's not like I didn't work hard, but when the returns and your efforts are not proportional.. You feel sad ): I amfeeling really stupid right now....
The only good thing perhaps is that this chem o, I seriously learnt a lot. Not just chemistry alone, but the skill of self studying (you need a tremendous lot of logic, in my opinion), and learnt a lot of lab skills through practice (& the scoldings)...

Anyway, recently i realised that the more you try to understand someone, the more you realise you dont understand the person at all. ): then, what do you do?

THE GREATEST RELIEF

2011-08-17T14:23:00.002+08:00

i seriously have a trauma for amy's pencil markings (words)... i dont know why. the moment i saw the pencil markings, i started freaking out (although i was scared before also) it was like the essay "OMG!! i am going to die!! HISTORY IS GOING TO REPEAT" and i was freaking out so bad that i teared ),: WHEN I HAVENT EVEN SEEN MY MARKS!!! (stupid right?) but i was THAT scared you know.. plus cause i was so scared i didnt know what she was writing and i went shit shit!! plus i didnt see any marks which means that part is wrong and i get even more scared... yeah, you get the idea IH = terror :S

but i PASSED!!!! wheee ^^ the best thing ever is that my mark is TWO DIGIT!! ^^ phewwwwww.....

IH IS TOTALLY SCARY!!!!

hahah!! but this also means i lost the bet (actually i dont really remember the details of the bet) but this is SUCH AN AWESOME THING I DONT MIND LOSING A THOUSAND TIMES :DD

hahaha!! so anyway, thanks JIEYING for your tissue :)) it's greatly appreciated :))

and it feels so great that such a big burden is gone....

actually not exactly gone, since there is EOYs....

so anyway, let me survive through tomorrow first, because there are:

Math binomial theorem quiz (should be quite ok.. but i need more time to do the quiz!!!)
Passing down (chiong out the letters for the TREASURERS)
IH TP (should be quite ok, hopefully)

AND THE GREATEST TEST EVER: CHEM O. ):

ONE WORD: DEAD ):

ok, i better go study now. bye bye!

FLEA-ing

2011-08-15T15:52:00.003+08:00

i want to rent a flea booth this dec hols. Anyone interested? hahah!! i am super enthu about it :)

so well, let me give you some details for you to consider.

1) i am going to rent on one day, probably sat or sun (more people) its from 2-8pm

2) rental fee is gonna be from $35 onwards depending on location etc. (it will be better if there is more people)

3) most probably it will be at Scape (be prepared that the booth might be at the basement, which means its will be really WARM!!)

yepp, but its going to be a good time to renew your wardrobe :) isnt that great? :DDD

so anyway, i went home to see how many clothes i never wear before/ dont want to wear/ to small to fit, and i realised i only had 12 ): but i have a few more months to go, so its okay :) super excited, although i also dont know why...

so anyway, just to say, it is not gurantee that YOU WILL MAKE A PROFIT. i mean, how am i to ask people to buy. so yeah, you might make a loss. but if there are more people, should be quite ok bah :)

but well, i thought that i might just try it out for one time and get some experience first (plus i think it will be quite fun, somehow) and for clothes that you dont want to wear/ never wear before, isnt it better to sell it to someone who will wear it and then you can use the money to buy other clothes that you like? :)

to JIEYING and HUIHONG: DONT PANGSEH ME HORH :)

SHOPPING

2011-08-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

after reading hh's blog, i thought i might add my thoughts too....

i just bought one shorts (damn nice!! :DD at 5 bucks :DDD) hahaha!! its white denim ^^yepp, bought it from flea :)))) and i realised that fleas are quite nice to shop :) but you really have to go and dig and find clothes....

but unlike hh, mine wasnt very fruitful, i am still thinking of my XXXXX ): oh wells ):

but cause we ended our shopping at bought 5+, then i went to help audrey give out flyers. SEE, I SO NICE RIGHT? :))) hahaha!! totally went back to inspire-street-sales mood......

but i am still happy because i am totally in love with my speaker!!! :DDDD

and its been quite some time since i went on to tumblr. meaning? ADDICTION CURED. LOL!!!

OVER THE MOON!!!!!

2011-08-14T11:17:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY BOUGHT THE SPEAKER!!!!! THE SPEAKER WHICH I HAVE BEEN WANTING FOR AGES!!!!! :DDDDDD it's lime green and it's SUPPPERRRRR CUTE!!!!! :DDD

cause i wanted that specific speaker (x-mini), i have been searching high and low for it... and you know what? it's at HARVEY NORMAN at WESTMALL!!!! LOL!!! my sis saw it while i was developing my photos :) but kodak express photo quality is a lot better than harvey norman photo centre...but harvey norman is cheaper... yeah, and my sis was like "EH! is this the speaker which you have been looking for?" and O.O there is was!!!!! :DDDDDD

and the most important thing was that my mum bought it for me!!! at first cause my budget was limited, i wanted to buy the $30 bucks but since my mum sponsored, i bought the $50 one!!! WHEEE ^^ super duper happy!!!

LIFE IN SCHOOL

2011-08-11T21:08:00.002+08:00

back to school AGAIN after the super long weekend :) updates? flu got worse/better? i dont know.

yepp, but got back PAPERS!!! O.O!!!!!! PAPEERRRRSSS!!!! hahaha!!! but i was super happy for all the papers got back today (math, chem, bio) because all were higher than what i expected or within my expectatation. but most importantly, what made my day was IH ESSAY! yes, we FINALLY got it back. and it is the FIRST time ever i gotten so high for an essay :)))))) WHEE ^^ yes, i am OVER THE MOON!!! you know amy was going through the answers for like 3/4 of the lesson, and the tension keeps building up and building up.. and i was like "OH SHIT!! I VERY SCARED LEH" and finally, she returned. the moment i looked at the paper, i freaked out. on the very very FIRST page, was a lot of pencil scribblings, just like the previous essays, and i went, OMG!!! SURELY DIE LE!!! i am so scared of her pencil scribblings lah!!! trauma :S hahaha!!! but we did ok :)))) and i went :DDDDDDDD for the rest of the day!!!! YES, TODAY IS SUCH A HAPPY DAY......

UNTILL chem o.....

i dont know if it was because my flu made me groggy or that i am always in the "huh" mode, SWH just SCOLDED finish people of taking salt and pouring it into the testtube as this will contaminate it. and that instead we should put in a beaker and pour distilled water, then pour into testtube... and corrected the way we should hold a dropper...

and then the next moment, i went up to the teacher's table and wanted to take the salt sample. and i took the spatula and poured it into testtube. and SWH went: a few seconds ago i said what you were not supposed to do. and now you are doing it. did you hear what i was saying? and i was like OH YEAH HORH!!! and i totally stunned down there. HOW IDIOT CAN I GET?! ok, enough of that, after that went on pretty ok (thanks zest for being such a great lab partner!!), other than the fact that i had no time to finish my table of results and that i think my procedure was quite screwed. i realised it at like only the last few minutes. but i already done the experiment, so i couldnt possibly do anything.... but it was fun, experimenting with chemicals i never experimented with before :)) the experiment was fun, really fun actually, but STRESSFUL :S

9 august

2011-08-09T20:57:00.004+08:00

Today was a bad day. Not really happy. Reason being, wanted to do work but nothing was done, wanted to go out but couldn't ):

Anyway, perhaps it's because of blocks and the fact that I have nothing, or rather don't want to do anything mode, and that my sore throat graudated to a cough, I am back into one of my emo lapses :p and today's topic is sensitivity. Actually, I think that I am quite a sensitive person, too sensitive in fact that I hate it. Something seemingly normal, I can keep thinking and thinking about it ): but when you read too much into things, in the end, you will be the one being unhappy ):
The only good thing is that perhaps I know when to keep
My mouth shut when I can sense someone is irritated by me :p but then again, I think I show my emotions quite easily, because sometimes when you have nothing to talk about, nothing to feel happy about, it's kinda hard to lee your mouth moving, and a smile plastered there....

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS!

2011-08-08T19:34:00.003+08:00

NATIONAL DAY IS ROUND THE CORNER!!!

somehow every national day, my sense of patriotism is aroused (although i felt it more strongly during this year's elections) so anyway, this year was the first year we celebrated national day in NY. traditional games was fun. although i still do not know how to play zero point, and my chapteh skills are horrid. but well, i finally knew how to ran in when the rope is moving and continue skipping (i dont really know how to write it out in words, so yeah). hopscotch was not as fun as expected, because i am extremely not used to the rules ): i prefer the rules we played last time, more fun :D but nonetheless, we won 2nd!!! WAHAHAHAH!!! (actually credit should go to jiamin) and we won 2nd for pepsi cola 123!! ARENT WE PRO?!!!! hahha!!! so anyway, prize was FOOD ^^ twisties, appollo, YUPI (^^), and some noodles snacks.. and the leftovers will be my tea for the next few ~~weeks~~ days :)

yeah, so we went BBQ for lunch!!! :DD so awesome right? so sad the outlet at cine close, BBQ is damn awesome! so yepp, we went thomsom plaza AGAIN. but the service was really horrible.

oh and i realised how bad my math was )): i seriously didnt know how the 5 dollars disappear and reappear again :P

on the side note, i need a shopping trip badly ): have been deprived of window shopping for quite some time ): yes, window shopping. no money and nothing to buy (yes, i know i am picky) hahah! but i just like to window shop. it's fun, somehow.

and let me do an announcement: T.G.I.F. is on this coming sat and sun. come down to Orchard central (i think) to support!

1,2, 3 SMILE :)

2011-08-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

blocks is over! yes finally :))) and today is party time!!! had the laugh of my life today.

the movie was so awesome!! it is called 人在囧途 or something around the lines :) its super duper funny!!! the airplane (puking the milk) and the car accident part was soo funny!!!! :DD and ms ng was so nice to let us watch :))) but the bad thing about sitting is the front row is that i think i was too near the screen, and then? HEADACHE ): and i realised that actually tables were quite ok to sleep on other than the fact that i am not sure if they are clean.

ok, so anyway, today, i took 3 hours to finish my dinner :) hahah!! how pro are we :) prata was ok, but the soy bearncurd was good :) i like :) and guess what? we saw mrs lai at thomsom plaza!! so you3 yuan2 right? yoguru was good, and we spent a whole 1 hour or more there talking crap :) i remembered i laughed a lot (so 难得 right? ) although i dont remember what i was laughing about.....

SCREWING

2011-08-02T12:49:00.002+08:00

why is blocks so freaking hard? or rather, why do i not know how to do so many questions???? ): i am going to die )))): damn sad damn stress damn tired ): and tomorrow is IH and physics and physics o. OH NO!! IH!! you know, my nightmare, my 9? ): please, history, please dont repeat yourself. at least let me get a 2 digit mark.......

hh said: 10 more weeks to EOYs :S scary right?!!!

hope that i can continue my studying momentum even after this blocks.. because if i rest, i dont know when i will start again :P but then again, this weekend is gonna be PARTY TIME!!! jiayous, just a few more papers.. and then? SHOPPING :D

but facing reality now, i am screwed. my blocks are screwed. and i am going to die ):

SONG

2011-07-31T21:50:00.003+08:00

i wonder if you remember that i was finding hard for a song that i found really nice :) and well, i found it! it was actually in my mp3 :P

i like this song partly cause it sounds so sad. but the lyrics are really meaningful :)

5 DAYS

2011-07-31T12:03:00.002+08:00

trying hard to tell myself to believe that: YES, I CAN SURVIVE THROUGH THIS WEEK :S

i studied, ok. but its just that i have this insecurity that i will get a mental block when i look at the paper. especially math ): it happened before. looking at the first question, and i go: OMG!! how do you do this? and i will go SHIT SHIT!! I AM GOING TO DIE.. and well, i did ):

i guess its more of a psychology problem rather than me not knowing how to do ): then again, there's biology and physics. its like i know why it works this way, how it works this way, why did it happened, but the thing is, i cant put it down in words ):

and back to chinese, which is TOMORROW!!! YMZ keep saying that its gonna be real easy and i think it makes it even scarier, what if it is so easy but i dont know how to do it??? :S

i seriously think i need at least 1 hour to calm myself down before any exams...

wish me luck :)

SUAY ):

2011-07-29T15:11:00.002+08:00

why am i so freaking suay??? )):

anyway, i think i am really getting on years. one hour or math and i want to die ): i guess its been really really long since i actually sat down there for one hour and do math :P but i am SCARED for blocks!! actually, i dont have much to say actually other than the fact that i am very suay ):

AMRI

2011-07-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

the trip was awesome! really learnt a lot :) and made me more motivated to learn chemistry.

anyway, i shall give some examples why i found it so interesting. 1) i knew how drugs are "founded". like for example, there is some compound that cause fermenting (cause protein to coagulate or something), and from this structure, they add OH add H or CH2 etc. to form a new structure which has only the coagulating function (and not the rest). and then this can be used to lower cholesterol :)

2) the science labs are really cool. can really see the equipment used for hydrogenation :D although i didnt see the process, but it was still :DD

HAHA!! i sound like some nerd. but its really really interesting. i enjoyed it more than i thought i would :D

PANEL DISCUSSION

2011-07-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

today was fun! because there's tennis :)) but i prefer playing rally cause when we use the machine, i feel its more of picking up balls :( but anyway, it's still fun! and i dont know why i keep hitting people UNINTENTIONALLY (obviously! if not my aiming that good meh). i hit jieying on her eye 2 weeks ago, and hit another person on her head :S and apparently, wanli said i hit her on a head :S ( YES!! OUR DA MING XING IS BACK TODAY!!!--gosh! i think i got some of huihong's drama cells :S) LOL!!! so as you can see, tennis is a dangerous sport... and my hand is aching now.. luckily i dont use my writing hand when i play sports (so weird right? i think so too)

so anyway, today is seriously draining all my brain cells dry :/ focus group discussion (PSL) about leadership stuffs left me half dead, and panel discussion left me fully dead. yepp, i am officially brain-dead now. more research isnt going to help and i thought i might just go and rest :P and JIEYING IS THE BEST PERSON ON EARTH!!! YAY!!! SHE'S SOOOO NICE ^^ hahah!! if not i tomorrow surely surely die de :DDDDD

anyway, bio spa tomorrow = :S it isnt scary, but coming to think of it, it's scary. it's a freaking 5%!! you know block test is only like 4%!!! which means tomorrow SPA is more important than blocks!! O.O freaking out now :/

TITLE

2011-07-24T10:35:00.002+08:00

from not really feeling anything, i am getting quite irritated...

so now, we are the bad guys. we are the arrogant ones, the proud ones, the snobbish ones.. is that it?

you know what, sometimes i think, there is really no solution to this. if we won, we are the bad guys; and if we lost, we will be termed under the "cannot live up to name" bunch of people? seriously, i dont know. but this competition was destined never to have a happy ending, i guess.

赢要赢得光荣，输要输的服气，你们不服气，但你认为，这场比赛，我们赢得光荣吗？

perhaps, from the very start, we shouldnt even have such a competition.....

HARRY POTTER

2011-07-19T17:03:00.002+08:00

i realised i havent write about yesterday :) so i shall do so now :)

HARRY POTTER WAS AWESOME!!! and i am really happy + fortunate that i managed to catch almost every series of HP (all except order of phoenix). its been a magical childhood, and you watch harry, hermione and ron grow as you grow :) how cool is that? hahah!

and we finished one large popcorn :) cathay popcorn is the best!! :D whee ^^

1cm :)

2011-07-19T16:16:00.003+08:00

hahah today was a happy day :) grew 1cm and lost 1 kg ^^ 1 more cm to my ideal height ^^ yes, keep on growing :) and plus i saw amanda on the way home (mg friend)

anyway, sg's weather is really like a furnace!! i am seriously going to be cooked ):

anyway, as i have stepped down, there is no CCA TODAY!! hahah! its been really long since i went home on tuesdays, and well, i'm enjoying it ^^

ok, actually i dont have much to write/say, just that its week 4 people!!! BLOCKS IS IN 2 WEEKS TIME!!!

I'M SORRY

2011-07-15T20:36:00.002+08:00

this is dedicated to ms goh jieying,

i am so sorry for hitting you with the tennis ball. i seriously didnt expect my aiming to be that "good" i hope your eye is ok and that you wont become like this (below)

when i see you on mon :P i especially chose the baby panda(cause it's cuter ok? :D)

FOA PREMIER CONCERT

2011-07-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

it wasnt really the best performance we had given... it was messy, some yin1s werent zhun3, but i really enjoyed it :) it was the performance that i smiled the most, and from my heart :)

there are a few reasons contributing to it too:

1. during first half of the concert, i was at the circle area and saw where huihong, jolene, jieying, wanli were ^^ (i called them but they never respond ): ) and i was seated directly opposite them

2. baoyi was the conductor. and the mc said "let's welcome MISS KOH BAO YI" and i just wanted to laugh :P

3. i really enjoyed the playing. i didnt know why. perhaps this is the last time i am performing with this bunch of awesome people. it just brings back a sense of nostalgia about SYF. about the endless extra pracs, the groanings and the prep talks (not really a prep talk though). its always the journey that's the hardest. but when we look back, we dont see the hardness, we feel the sweetness :)

4. the fact that MY FRIENDS ARE HERE TO SUPPORT ME ^^

5. i smiled because i really saw the grasslands and felt the butterfly. the butterfly flew, and the horse galloped across the plains... we did it :)

but at times, i felt that smiling looked/felt really weird (like the smile is plastered on). and i stopped smiling, and then i smiled again (baoyi said she noticed that too :P)

finale was quite cool i must say :) it really felt like a finale (duh -.-) in the sense that everyone is there, and that all the performing arts are there, and its a really really nice full stop to put to the 4 years of cca in nanyang. and whats more, this FOA is really a nice finale before i step down....

BUSYY

2011-07-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

this week is going to be a really really busy week.

after rehearsal today, i was totally drained, although we seriously seriously didnt do much. nonetheless, i kinda like FOA as it spells a nice fullstop to cca after 4 years.

ok, so about happenings? my life is BORING. so what do you want to know? these days have been passing by in a blurr, and i cant really register what exactly is going on.

oh! on sunday, went to eat chilli mcgrill. want my rating? well, mcspicy is better. the sauce is a bit like gong1 bao3 ji1 ding1's sauce, but when you eat it with the bread, it tastes fine. but it is freaking spicy. i ate until my lips look like sausages :S and on sunday, went to walk railway track too. damn a lot of people.. and you know on the tracks there are broken pieces of glass!! but took 1 or 2 photos only. not really artisitc, cause there's so many people and you cant really capture the "never-ending"-ness of the railway track.

so anyway, i wonder if chloe/jolene/huihong/wanli realised... today, the 8.00 variety show was at IMM!!! do you remember????

anyway, i am looking forward to next monday! HARRY POTTER!! havent book tickets though too. its going to be awesome i hope :) but actually, i dont really feel sad that HP is ending..although well, i watched all the HP movies (except order of phoenix) and read the whole series... or perhaps thats cause i am too excited to watch HP. and maybe after that the blues will come.... but have you guys heard of the HP marathon (i think on 14-15 july) its like a movie marathon and you watch from sorcerer's stone to HP7 part 2!!! SO FREAKING COOL RIGHT?!!! if i didnt have school and had the money, i will die die go! although i am not a hard-core HP fan, but it is like a one-in-a-lifetime opportunity lah! but i think i will have A LOT OF DIFFICULTY finding someone who will go with me :( anyway, the tix is like $92, which is like super worth it, since all 3 meals are provided and its a total of 8 movies!

MOOD: :D

2011-07-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

i am so happy & relieved today is over :) i was scared to bits on yesterday night (esp for chem o- freaking scared plus i dont know/understand a single thing) so well, it turned out quite ok :)

anyway, i have been pretty happy in school these days :) not sure why, perhaps because i am surrounded my so awesome people? :DD

so well, i dont really know what to write. nothing special happened lately, just that i am constantly in good spirits :)

TO JULY: WELCOME

2011-07-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

went to orchard today :) orchard xchange isnt really a new shopping centre, but i still feel that the F21 in 313 is bigger.. and more organized :P so yepp. didnt buy anything there...

and you know at tangs, i stood at the food demo place with my mum for at least 15 minutes, watching the person bake a banana cake :) hahah!! its quite fun though :) and i sort of learnt a new recipe? plus she's really good... didnt get to eat the cake though 'cause had to wait 25 minutes...

thennnnn, we went to taka! and guess what? there was a food fair!! YAY! i love food fairs :DD hahah! free sampling of awesome food :) i really wanted to buy the japanese peanuts and rice crackers (but didnt buy cause too ex alr D: ) but food always make people happy :DDDD

and i saw really really big, and looks super delicious PEACHES!!!! i have been wanting to eat peaches from japan for really long.. cause they look so good.. but always, the price is like O.O they sold a box of 4 for $58!!! which obviously i didnt buy ): one day one day, i am going to buy one and eat :))

anyway, my scrapbooking plan progressed by a little bit :DD i bought like a little file (to store what? i dont know :P) there will be something to file inside :)

oh yeah, i havent really talked about youth day yet... so here is it :) funfair right? it was quite :| yeah, no high no low, just :| hahah! i think last year was too big too grand too fun :P but i like our booth :) hahah! perhaps cause its our 401's booth :) so anyway, after that went to kbox! whee ^^ i prefer the new system now (they have renovation) and the screen seems bigger... yepp :) singing always makes one happy ^^ then went to oschool :)

ok, i am going to sleep already :) byebye!

IT'S TOMORROW!

2011-06-26T12:16:00.002+08:00

actually, i am quite looking forward to tomorrow :) cause i miss my friends :)) hahah! Friends make school so awesome! So i might as well enjoy the last day of my really-unproductive holiday.. But there seems to be nothing to do ):
currently, i am waiting for city hunter ep 11 to come out.. And waiting for 1930 to come so i can watch my hk drama :)
anyway, this holiday also havent been really fruitful. I just bought one tank :S haha! And although i didnt really go out a lot of times, it feels like i am really busy (dont know doing what)...
Ohh.. And you know what, i kinda miss lessons!! Hahah! Especially bio! I dont know why..perhaps its nice to know more interesting facts about everything around you... But on the other hand. Quite scared to get back IH essay!! Ahhh!! When we handed in, i felt quite ok about it.. But now i am like 'OMG! How how?' IH is a scary subject...
And most importantly, i am looking forward to tomorrow because of MY POCKET MONEY!! yeah.. You can imagine how broke i was ): nxt dec hol shld be slightly better since i am planning to work :) but actually i am quite scared for higher chinese o levels.. I dont know why.. I think exams are just scary bah... Yes, i shall just believe that i will do ok :)

stuffs

2011-06-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to do so i might as well start blogging :) well, i started watching CITY HUNTER! surprising? hahah! not as action-packed as expected though...

anyway, i forgot to mention that i went to watch VOYAGE DE LA VIE too!!! you know the theatre show that publicity is quite xiong1? the one with the contortionists (they are so cool!!)? it was more like a gymnast show thingg, but it was so cool :) i think artistic gymnasts are really cool!! like how they can just turn on bars and hang on hula hoops! :D

and then there was a shooting. the guy's shooting is practically perfect!! damn cool :D

the only bad thing was my sitting.. i was sitting at the front row (at the side) D:

so anyway, today has been not really productive (since i started city hunter :P). there was piano :DD yes, my piano has finally resumed (stopped it cause of syf) and i changed teacher, and she is super duper cute :DDD haha! she can go on rambling and rambling :) and its interesting :DD

and recently, i am super duper ~~broke~~ bankrupt ): sad life gosh ):

this totally says everything!!! ):

and anyway, i like this (below) really much:

USS

2011-06-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

so yepp, i am back from USS :) miss me? so anyway, super happy :DD 'cause i finally got to sit battleship galatica human and cylon (thats how they spell it.. or maybe i remembered wrongly) yepp, its the blue and red one!! i have been wanting to sit both of them since i knew of its existence and OMG!! both were so awesome!! the blue one (cylon) is more fun!! and you go upside down!! :DDD hahah! but you dont actually feel it, thats for me, cause it will be suddenly like "OMG! i can see the sky!!" hahah!! super happy :) the red one (human) was less scary. but the first time i sit it, it was quite scary.. because it was going up up up and then suddenly it accelerated upwards and just came down without stopping. taken in my surprise :) hahaha!! but it was fun too :) and i got down feeling giddy :S but damn damn fun!!!

and also got to sit "revenge of the mummy" :D it was good :)) and of couse, jurassic park is a MUST SIT :DD hahah!! damn shiok!! :DD

oh, and they opened a new ride at madagascar there. its a boat ride (a bit like it's a small world.. hahah! quite interesting :D) and well, i took picture with kungfu panda!!! wahahahah!!! upload another day :)

and why are these days so freaking warm? )):

chem o.

2011-06-18T12:09:00.001+08:00

today was the TEST :SSS damn scared damn scary....

the only comfort is probably, i wont get a zero :SSS

blah blah blah...

2011-06-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

i have a splitting headache today ): seriously splitting. i cant think, or read anything, or even watch videos.. my brain just cant process anything ): and the worse part is, i cant sleep. i know, i lie on the bed, close my eyes and sleep....(10min passed) and i am still awake ):

and then i go "why am i sleeping?" and i decided to perhaps do something useful, and the cycle repeats )):

and i feel like writing something but nothing is actually coming out....

anyway, having BBQ later :) it's gonna be awesome!! hahaha!!! SALMON & CODFISH & SATAYS & OTAHS AND CHICKEN WINGSSS!!! but my mum didnt buy graham crackers (there goes my smores D: )

STREET SALES

2011-06-10T19:44:00.002+08:00

the consequence of doing 4 hours of streetsales is this: i feel like sleeping now (eyelids half closed, calfs aching and brain dead)

but you see, i am so nice to come here and write for you to read right? :DD hahaha!!

streetsales was fun and interesting, met many interesting, nice and generous people :DDD

and guess what? we saw Mr Shone!! (i am not lying ok? we really really saw him. we = wanli, huihong and me)

so anyway, i kind of enjoy doing streetsales (i dont know why also :P) but perhaps because you is a different kind of people watch? you see different kinds of people and in a sense, its better, since you kind of get a chance of interaction through your "hi! would you like to donate?" :P

and what's more? its for a good cause ^^

ok, putting that aside, i would like to talk about more DEPRESSING ISSUES:

1. i am on a really tight budget ):

2. I WENT HOME ALONE TODAY (guilty ones? yes, i am referring to you....) so sad right? )):

hahahaha!! actually, i think my mood was really good today, considering that while doing streetsales, there was this period of time when i was really happy for i dont know what reason (perhaps 'cause someone just donated to me or something) but i was really happy :) and it kind of continued all the way back home!! ^^

and you know what... jolene and wanli are SCARED OF ME!!! wahahaha!! i am so scary :DDD hahah!! but jieying and huihong doesnt seem to be scared of me ): why??? people scared of me than i can bully them :P tsktsk.. i am not that mean ok....

plus plus, i realised my acting skills improved (or maybe they are already quite good, is just that i didnt realised it :P) because i managed to fool jolene and jieying (in our wanli, huihong and me collaboration :P) hahah!! but as i say, my acting skills is not as good as the other two is because "i cant blame myself for being too honest :P"

ok.. there's definitely something wrong with me today.. i am like totally self-praising myself :P oops!!

ohhh!!!!! and BREAKIN NEWS!! you know what? my nxt mon shopping plan is spoiled because of greenwave )): whyyy??????

:DDD

2011-06-09T13:20:00.003+08:00

a few cute pictures to brighten your day!! (our considerate of me right? ^^)

i am completely amused today ^^ i went blog hopping and i read this person's blog (i am not going to say who...) and i just found it so amusing!!!! kind of made my day...

and during lunch, i was laughing/smiling like an idiot and my mum gave me the "what's wrong with you?" look..oops!!

yeah.. this holiday has been really fast.. i can feel the time sipping away!! is like i havent really done anything (other than perhaps, IH?) and it half of the hols is almost gone!! and plus, i havent really been resting well these days..

i sleep, but i have nightmares.. you know the night before, i dreamt that i was being chased by a polar bear?!! so weird right? and then after that i realised that the polar bear was fake (like those costumes.. you know..) and today, i dreamt that i went to DISNEY LAND but you know what? there was some hurricane or something and all the rides were closed and i had to sit in MacDonalds staring at the gloomy sky )): hahaha!! dreams are really weird things...

Bored

2011-06-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

I am freaking bored... But I have stuffs to do..it's just that, I don't feel like doing them..superb is the best example I can give...at least my IH is almost done now :) ok, so anyway I have been thinking bout quite a lot of stuffs since my brain isn't really in use.. And well, i think I am quite mean at times (or is this already a known fact :p) but well, I would just like to apologize alhoigj o seriously don't think you will see my apology. I'm sorry. Yeah I know, what's the use of saying it here right? Bit you know sometes when you miss your perfect opportunity/ chance to say it, it is really hard to get it out of your mouth.. And yeah when it comes to these kind of stuffs, I am quite a coward ): gosh.. I seriously need the courage ):

)):

2011-06-07T18:55:00.003+08:00

you know what? i need to work.. cuz i need $$. to buy stuffs!!! :) hahaha!!

anyway, holidays are fun but at the same time, boring... i spent my whole morning facing the computer screen and doing IH (i am so hardworking right? :D) and guess what, i am not even half done ): and i spent my entire afternoon finding nice videos to watch (nothing nice to watch though) because i am suffering from post-vampire dairies blues ):

at first i wanted to watch supernatural S6 but it just wont load ): and plus, i didnt watch the earlier seasons either....

anyway, ystd went shopping!!! and kungfu panda-ing!! hahaha!

saw SOO MANY THING I WANTED TO BUY but couldnt buy cuz i didnt bring enough $$$ D: and now, i dont really have confidence in persuading my mum them for me :S oh wells, there is only one MAJOR WANT though.. THE SPEAKER!!! i have been wanting a speaker for like since i dont know when, and i was planning to go US and buy and they dont sell!!! ok, i saw one which looked quite good but it costs like US$80, so obviously i didnt buy (since my budget is $50) and this one costs $29.90!! :DDD hahaha!!

i seriously think it is because i bought so little in US.. cuz when i come back, i suddenly want to buy a lot of things :P and although now is the GSS, the discounts dont seem a lot leh ):

p.s. i have this sudden craving for fillet 'o fish :P (yes, i am not really sick of fast food or sandwiches but quite sick of GRILLED CHICKEN :P) anyone?

and who is going to organise our marina barrage outing?? and ice-skating??

NEW YORK

2011-06-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

ok, i know this may be coming a little too late. but well, since i am on the reflections we are supposed to submit tomorrow, i might as well write a draft here :P

so here goes:

firstly, i really enjoyed the school attachment, although i attended only a total of 4 periods in total? ok, i dont know whether do you consider this a lot or very little. but i mean, my source of comparison is with 3 weeks of school attachment in fudan last year. so yeah, in comparison, i thought it was a little short.. but still, i enjoyed it nonetheless. because it was like wow! the people there are really outspoken, friendly... it was truly an eye opener...

secondly, i really enjoyed the university talks... really made me inspired to go there and study :)

thirdly, i thought that the organization was not really well organized. because at times, i seriously have no idea what we were going to do... and another thing was that when i left NY, i felt like i havent really been there. i mean like, i havent been to times square, i havent taken the subway ): , i havent bought a lot of stuffs :P and i dont know, i just felt as though i havent really seen anything ): (or maybe it is just me...)

fourthly, i realised i hate choices. (ok, i think i am getting to a bit of sensitive issues. so if you think you wont like what i'm going to say, dont read it..) for me, in life, choices are those where two options are equally important (because if one is EVIDENTLY more important than another, you would have your choice).. and for me, because there are equally important, whichever choice i make, i will regret it. but it doesnt mean that my choice is better or anything. i have gotten something, but at the same time, i have missed something.. i guess, life is just like this? i dont know... ok, a quote from dream high that i cant really remember.. if a choice is 70-30, it really isnt a choice. a choice is when it is 50-50. but when you make your choice, all you have to do is make the 50 to 100..so yeah, i dont like choices, because at the point when there are choices, we are all losers...

fifthly, there comes a question. did our class really bonded? well, i think we did. ok, we had our fair share of conflicts and whatever not. but something mrs wong told us during the debrief struck me quite a bit. she said that when she was taking the 19 girls, it was really quiet (not sure how quiet it was, since hh was there :P) and she was sure it went for the 12 girls too.. and when we sort of "reunited", we were like !!!! WE HAVENT SEEN EACH OTHER IN 100 YEARS!!!!! hahah!!! and we go yada yada yada :D and coming to think of it, i agree with her. this is a class thing, from the start, our class should never had to split ): and although we did, i guess to some extent, it sort of have the "absence makes the heart fonder" effect and make us realise each other's importance? (ok, this is getting a bit mushy)... so accompaniment? fun? hahaha!!

sixthly, there are so quite a lot of cute guys in NY :P

seventhly, i realise that a lot of these cant be put into the reflections... ok, so now i shall go to censoring time :)) bye!

VAMPIRE DIARIES

2011-06-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

hahah ok, i am quite obsessed with this show :P but the internet is lagging, and the video is not loading, and i am going quite )):

i shall not be a spoiler here :) but go go go watch it!!! it is so awesome!!

the tension can just go up up up and it is so scary but still awesome!! :DDDD

FIVE!

2011-05-11T15:05:00.003+08:00

i have been feeling rather scared these days :/ scared of? i dont know. i just feel really jittery without knowing what is causing all these jitters :/

i guess these are symptoms of being too paranoid (of i dont know what...) or maybe is just that i am thinking too much (but i am not thinking of anything these days)

i get the feeling that every step i take is the wrong step, and every choice i make is the wrong one. and it feels really sucky ): it makes every mistake i make seem amplified, and ..... (i dont know)

but other than my 心里不踏实, i feel relatively happy these days :D hahah!! 5 item was today :D really satisfied with my results :) 2.4 was unevitably a B (i think), and the best best achievement was that i jumped 173cm for SBJ!!! this is the first time i jumped over 170!! and of course this C allowed me to get my first GOLD after 3 years :DDD super happy :)))

and after that, my legs were like jelly.. and i have troubling walking down the stairs now :D but this just shows the amount of effort i have put in to get this C ^^

anyway, i feel like asking this question. when someone say they care about something, how do you know if it is true? because when words are heard but no actions are seen, i dont know what to believe. all talk and no actions make your "care" worthless.. but the fact that you keep emphasizing on the fact that you "care" makes me really think that you care..

SEVEN!

2011-05-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

the time now is 1:28am.. OMG! i cant believe i still havent sleep (considering my usual sleep time is around 11pm- 12am)

and there are only 7 more days to US trip :)))

but FIRST, LET ME GET OVER THE NEXT FOUR DAYS :/ yeah, two weeks worth of work in 3 days, i am definitely going to die ):

there is:

- chem quiz [periodic table, reacitivity series] which i havent studied yet ):

-physics quiz [thermistor] which i also havent studied yet )):

-bio quiz [cell division] which i STUDIED but cannot REMEMBER ):

-IH essay (which i just sent to jolene?)

-Expository

-Math int. CD WS 4 -- which i am stuck at qn 4 :P

but there are still things to look forward too :)

- CSM = MILO VAN = KBOX?(after that) = :DDDD

-tomorrow can wake up late? (and then chiong finish everything? :P)

-3 more days of school :D

-PACK MY LUGGAGE ^^

-FLEA MARKET :DD